"A double minded man is unstable in all his ways" (James 1:8).
How many times have you doubted your decision to homeschool — one, two, ten, more? I lost count on the number of times I failed to trust in God's provision and care. As a Christian parent, I knew we would never succeed if I continually allowed my emotions to be tossed around each time something went wrong. Doubt may be a natural human response, but either God had shown me to homeschool or He hadn't. Instead of looking at the waves of adversity, God asked me, "Will you walk by faith and trust in My leading?"
Like the man looking for help to heal his son in Mark 9:24b, I cried out to Jesus, "Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief."
Meeting me in my limited faith, the Lord gently showed Himself faithful as I sought His wisdom to homeschool each day. God first encouraged and empowered me with the truth of Deuteronomy 6:7 and other verses where God commands parents to "teach them (Scripture) diligently unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up." Next, He provided constant encouragement through several loving homeschooling families. Facing doubts of their own, we found strength together in prayer to fight unbelief (Matthew 18:20). Most of all, the supernatural answers to prayer and the Holy Spirit's guidance confirmed that our family was indeed walking where God desired.
If your doubts are outweighing your faith in homeschooling today, the Lord is waiting to show Himself mighty to you. Like Thomas, He doesn't want you to doubt any longer. Simply cry out, and He'll show Himself to be Lord of your homeschooling. "But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed" (James 1:6).
Father God, thank You for Your grace in leading our family on this homeschooling adventure. Please, increase my faith and help me to see Your perfect plan for our family. In the name of Jesus, Amen.