If you've ever felt guilty about past homeschooling failures, you're not alone. Many parents have known setbacks with over-scheduling, under-planning, and teaching unfamiliar courses. However, the worst failures experienced as homeschooling parents aren't related to academics or schedules. Our worst failures come when we fail to show the love of Christ. Losing our patience and becoming irritable with our children, we speak harshly and suffer regret and remorse for foolish words and actions. Afterwards, even though we confess our sin, we fail to accept God's forgiveness and torture ourselves with our mistakes until we quit homeschooling altogether.
Until we understand that the Lord forgives and cleanses us from sin (1 John 1:9), we will continue to carry our guilt. Promising yourself that you'll do a better job homeschooling tomorrow or the next day only adds to your guilt. The forgiveness of sin isn't based on your performance. You've already proven that your performance isn't good enough. Your forgiveness is based on what Christ has done for you on the cross. When you acknowledge that He died in your place, He gives you a new thinking pattern guided by the Holy Spirit. In His power, you are able to set aside your selfish and fleshly desires that cause homeschooling failures.
What about you? Did you wake up this morning dragging around the guilt for your homeschooling failures from yesterday? You can find release from that bondage if you hand over your past mistakes to Christ. If you've confessed your sin, He's forgiven you, and there's no reason to feel guilty any longer. "He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us" (Psalm 103:10, 12).
Lord, help me to receive Your forgiveness and not live in the shame of my failures. Give me wisdom to teach my children today and help me to trust in Your strength and not my own. In the name of Jesus, Amen.