My Life's a...
I tried to listen to the deeper message my high school daughter was communicating as she went on about all the terrible things in her life. Her list continued to lengthen until she stopped mid-sentence and said, "My life's just a pain." Most of her issues involved trusting God for future provisions and the challenge of waiting on Him for these unknowns. I could see her faith being stretched, but I was bothered by her ungrateful response to what God had already given her. Couldn't she see all the blessings around her? Didn't she know and appreciate how much we had sacrificed to give her the best education at home?
Just as I started to have a pity party, God stopped me and spoke to my heart. "Dear one," He said. "Don't you know that you complain to me every day? I gave you everything I had when I sacrificed my life on the cross to save you, yet you grumble about this and that and forget the price I paid to call you my child." Wow, God doesn't pull any punches. He was absolutely right! Many times throughout our homeschool years, my actions and words had failed to communicate a loving trust in His provision. Perhaps my own daughter's struggle was simply reflecting my own failings in trusting God. I was doubly convicted of my ungrateful heart.
Together, my daughter and I turned to God's Word. We let the anxious thoughts go as we laid our problems before the Lord. Instead of whining and complaining, we brought our petitions before God with thanksgiving for what He had already given us (Philippians 4:6). God had already blessed us with so much, and He opened our eyes to trust Him for the unknowns that laid ahead.
Are you struggling with the future? Do you feel like you'll never reach any of your dreams? Turn around and look at every blessing He has given you in the past, and you'll be amazed! God has done so much. Can't He do even more? Trust Him to meet your needs today. "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee" (Isaiah 26:3).
Father, forgive me for doubting Your loving care for me. I know You have everything under control and will reveal Your will to me at the proper time. Help me to defeat the discouraging doubts when they come and cling to You for all I need. In Jesus' name, Amen.